I miss eating Dondurma in the streets of Turkey… sigh.
I hate applying for things. I feel like I have to sell myself. Blah.
The weather is absolutely perfect outside. I can wear jeans and a thin long-sleeved shirt without sweating to my core. It makes me want to go on a picnic! Mmm… wishing it would stay like this forever.
I hate feeling stressed… I hate how in the end it’s always my fault. I hate how I can depend on no one but myself. sometimes, i wish i had a shoulder to cry on, arms to hold me… someone who won’t betray me. is it so bad to ask for true friendship?
Someone made a facebook page about today’s incident. This isn’t exactly something to laugh about. I can’t believe people are insensitive enough to create this page and laugh about it. What if it was your best friend who went up to the sixth floor and committed suicide. Would you be laughing then?
Old song. All Apologies- Nirvana
Has lasted me 2.5 hours so far… and still going (: oh yay. There are guys mimicking the news… oh so silly!
There is a gunman on campus but you guys, seriously, TAKE A BREATHER. yeah, its scary as hell, but flipping a shit isn’t gonna help either. sheesh… ok, now that i’m done ranting. my ass feels like its going numb. sitting in painter basement with 200 other students from my genetics class. fabulous.
I sent my boyfriend the first third of my personal statement. He told me it was depressing. F my life. I’m a depressing person. What can I do. HAHA
I will kick this genetics test SUPER HARD in the ass. In all reality though, I’m terrified. Finklea is supposed to be a hard professor and she doesn’t even go by the book. The TA told me not to buy the book…that it would just confuse me more… So. Now I’m here with my lecture notes. And lecture notes only. God have mercy on my poor frying brain.
IS SUCH A PAIN IN MY ASS. I studied hard, so I think I did ok… well, ok considering its my first midterm in the class and I went in not knowing what he wanted us to know or the layout of the test… Anyway, it was tricky. Those stupid 25 multiple choice questions. And I have learned, never go into a 7-9pm exam without enough sleep!! I practically fell asleep during the exam…...
So I wanted to leave a thank you on someone’s wall but facebook won’t work… weird much? God’s way of telling me to close the damn laptop and study for ochem? possibly maybe? who knows (;
Note To Self.
Top on my list of things to do…. 1. grab a very LARGE cup of coffee from the nearest coffee shop <3 2. go to professors office hours so he can fill out my evaluation form…. BAHHH
If there is no struggle, there is no progress.– Frederick Douglass **Somebody, drive these words into my head….NOW**
I’ve never wanted to give up so badly…ever.
I am so disappointed with myself for letting my life revolve around him. Period. End of story. The End. Now that I’ve wasted a sufficient amount of time, I should go get some shit done… Yes? I think so. damn that photo assignment to hell and damn the rainy weather. ugh.
Today, was strangely unproductive in the most productive way possible. I listened to a lot of music. It was great<3 I crave carrot cake. Damn…
TWO MORE WEEKS THEN KINA GRANNIS AND SARA BAREILLES CONCERT<3 cannot wait!
Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it’s the moments that take your...– Hitch
One of those days.
Today is one of those days. You don’t quite know why you’re feeling.. well the way you feel. I’m tired and hungry. And very frustrated. And normally, all these things would be fixed as the day progresses… but today, today I’m on my bed eating Fudge Stripes at 6:44pm, listening to Avenged Sevenfold, and fuming with rage inside. What an interesting day. It’s...
I'm a medley of emotions.
Love this song. I’m gonna smile cause I...
The "Used To Be"s.
I used to be.. -So carefree -So emotional -So curious -So innocent -So naive (still naive) -So active -So wonderful -So strong -So motivated -So hardworking -So happy… Why are there so many “used to be”s?
It’s amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look. This person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, is now walking right past you, seeing right through you.
Cute song… <3 This is just a...
I have no motivation. To do anything. Anymore. Sleeping seems like a waste of time. I’m tired and hungry and pissed at the world. I wish there was an ugly rock I could kick.
I hate them. PERIOD. The End.